Monthly Archives: July 2011

Actually read something


Today I actually got round to reading some of Being and Nothingness. Picked up where I left off on the topic of transcendence. Which is all I have to say about it at the moment. It is a topic that requires a little time to digest I think. I am still trying to figure out where it fits into the bigger picture.

I did get loads of sewing done this afternoon. I figured out that if I turned the monitor round I could watch DVDs on my computer while I was sewing on my machine. Only works if you have not too complicated blocks and a not too complicated DVD, but still it kept me out of mischief for the afternoon. I managed to get through all the pile of blocks I had cut ready for machine sewing. Except the couple I had to put back to recut. Now I just have to go and get some dinner because I am starving.


Saturday 23 July 2011


Feeling incredibly tired for some reason. Not sure why, because I haven’t done an awful lot today. Managed to do some blocks, hand sewing while watching some quite bad cooking shows on tv. Am hoping to get loads done tomorrow, including some reading – which I have been putting off for far too long.


Angst and unwanted gifts


Today someone gave me a bunch of flowers. It was very kind and generous thing to do. The only problem is I don’t like flowers. Not only do I not like flowers but most cut flowers make my eyes itch, my sinuses ache and if my body is feeling really generous I break out in hives. Thankfully today I am so itchy from the new shampoo I am trying that I barely noticed the extra itchiness.

I didn’t know what to say to the person who gave them to me. Is it okay to say thank you I appreciate the thought, please don’t do it again? Please take them away? In the end I just said thank you.

I decided the only thing to do was take them home and put them in the bin because if I threw them out at work it would look bad, and then I felt bad about that because they were a decent bunch of flowers and probably cost a small fortune. It seemed like such a waste and I started to feel bad about being ungrateful.

Then the angst really set in. For me nothing brings out existential angst quite like an unwanted gift. It throws me right in the path of the other. This person is not me. Not only are they not me, they don’t know me or understand me. An unwanted gift brings home the isolation and loneliness of human existence, separated from everything by nothingness. 

The day was not a total loss however. I managed to overcome my angst by overindulging at the Lincraft 50% of all fabric sale. I gave the flowers away to a lady on the train who admired them. She went away happy – and they did come in a rather nice box which I kept, it will probably come in handy for something.

Chocolate cake


I decided to bake a cake when I got home from work. Mostly because I have eaten my whole weeks supply of chocolate already and all I had left where chocolate chips. I decided they would spread further if I baked them into a cake. Now I have the smell of chocolate cake cooking  wafting through my house. Smells so yummy.

I am not doing too badly on blocks at the moment. I got a couple done last night while I was watching tv, and another one done on the train this morning. I am having a lot of trouble getting back into the reading. Not helped by the fact that I had two quilting magazines waiting in my mail box when I got home from holidays and I am enjoying reading them.


Not being too hard on myself


Work has been stressful lately and I have been putting in long hours, and it was right back into the swing of things today. I know there are probably loads of people out there who work longer hours at tougher jobs, and I am mindful of not making it too much of an excuse, because there are always excuses to be had when one is looking. However, the project I am working on that is causing most of the angst finishes this week, after which I know I will have more time. So I am going to try to not get too stressed out this week if blocks don’t get made, pages don’t get read, or washing doesn’t get put away.  If I am still making excuses next week, that’s another story.

Back and kind of getting into the swing of things


I had all these plans for yesterday which all fell through for one reason or another. I got back from my trip Friday afternoon, and managed to get all my household chores out of the way, got groceries and all the stuff I needed from Bunnings. Saturday was supposed to be gardening and laundry in the morning and sewing and reading in the afternoon, but of course it started raining Friday night and didn’t stop all of Saturday. So I popped out as soon as the shops opened and got a clothes airer, and then spent the rest of the day sewing. Did a few blocks and started quilting my brick quilt. I managed a page of Sartre before allowing myself to be distracted by something else. All up it wasn’t a bad day, except for the cold and dreary weather, and the fact that just as I was climbing into bed at the end of it I remembered that I had forgotten to do a blog entry.

Am feeling kind of pleased with myself though because there was a brief respite in the weather this morning and I went out and dug another garden bed. Managed to get a whole bed done. For the first time my hands gave out before my back and energy did. If it wasn’t for some killer blisters I could have kept digging. Maybe I am getting just a little bit fit, and next weekend I should be able to start planting my veggies.

It looks like it is about to rain again now and the temperature is dropping again so I am off to find my jumper and to do some more sewing. I am thinking that in order to get some of the blocks to the size I want I might have to try some foundation piecing. I might give that a go. Or maybe I will just finish quilting that quilt. I do need something for show and tell for my quilt group meeting on Wednesday.