Monthly Archives: September 2011

Morning sewing


Morning sewing is clearly not working out. The block is going back for unpicking a second time.

Probably no post tomorrow due to house guests.

470 Road to the whitehouse



I thought I was being really clever when I decided to use my morning reading time for machine sewing instead, because I am so much more behind in sewing than I am reading. Just looked at the block I finished and realised it is wrong. Nevermind. Off to unpick and you will have to make do with one I finished on the train.

485 Rangers Pride

Jacob’s Ladder


Not much progress. Only one block to show and no reading. I spent my reading time this morning putting together my new hand push lawn mower. The plan was to finish mowing the last bit of lawn after work today, but I didn’t end up getting home before dark. And not a lot of sewing done because I was reading a work report on the train. Never mind, will try to get back on track for tomorrow.

The block I have is called Jacob’s ladder. Makes me wonder who Jacob was. I vaguely remember there being a Jacob in the bible but can’t recall whether he had a ladder. I suppose I could google it to try to find out, but there is probably some really mundane explanation for it, and it is more fun imagining.

471 Jacob's Ladder


Sorting out attitudes


No blocks tonight I am afraid. I have two half-finished ones but none ready to be photographed and displayed. I am worried I am starting to mentally write off this week in terms of sewing because I know I have house guests coming Friday night, and I’m probably not going to get much done over the weekend. I think I’m falling into the trap of all or nothing thinking mentality, if I can’t do twenty blocks this week I might as well do none and start again on Monday. What I really need to start thinking is that if I only do five, it’s better than nothing.

While sewing is dismal I have however accomplished many other things, a trip to bunnings, cleaned my house, and put a batch of brownies in the oven. I am also getting my head around attitudes. I was getting slightly confused with the idea of love, indifference etc being attitudes, because I was thinking of attitudes as psychological positions. Sartre seems to be talking about attitudes as a more fundamental expression of the self. He uses the term modes of being. 

Now off to get my brownies before they burn.

Second Attitude towards others


According to Sartre the first attitude towards others is love. The second is indifference, desire, hate, sadism. On reading the chapter title I thought it was a little strange to throw all that in together, but thankfully he is actually breaking it down into separate parts and not making desire and hate the same thing. First up is indifference which he sees as ignoring the power of the other, seeing others as just functional objects in the world, pretending they can’t affect me (where affect means to alter the structure of being). He says this is bad faith, which I suppose it is if you are adopting an attitude of indifference in order to hide from the truth, but I can’t help wondering whether it is possible that some people are indifferent by nature, they aren’t hiding from anything, or fleeing from themselves, that’s just the way they are. 

I think there is a problem with taking ones own world view and assuming that everyone thinks exactly the same, or that there are a specific limited number of attitudes we can take. Though it is probably equally problematic to assume that everyone is different.

At least sewing was kind of easy tonight. Though there was a small amount of unpicking. And… I think I have fixed my lawnmower. Well not fixed it, but I know what is wrong with it. It just needs new blades. They have gone kind of wonky, and aren’t throwing the grass clear, so everything is getting clogged with grass. Should hopefully be able to get some new blades at the weekend. Probably should stop mowing over big branches from now on.

I think I broke my lawn mower


I think I broke my lawn mower. Every time I press the start button it just makes these little whimpers and then stops. In a fit of hopefulness I have decided it may just have overheated and if I put it back in the shed and try again next week it might behave a bit better. We shall see, I’ve probably blown the motor by mowing too much in one go. I might have to go to Bunnings next weekend and get one of those mechanical ones where the pushing makes the blade turn. I know I should just fork out some cash for a decent petrol one, it would make mowing the lawn so much quicker and easier but, despite being a reasonable mechanically savvy person, I just can’t get them to start. I put it down to having short arms. I just can’t pull the starter cord out far enough in one big pull.

I haven’t done any reading today but I have done a fairly reasonable amount of sewing. I am just trying to decide whether I should start back at the machine sewing again or whether I want to plonk myself down in front of the TV with some hand sewing. Definitely erring on the side of TV, all the mowing has worn me out.

24 September 2011 – Saturday


I am starting to feel like a student with a big assignment. One you know you should really get started on because the deadline is getting ever closer, but you just can’t seem to find the motivation. The weird thing is I was never like that when I was younger, I was always the student with the project plan and millions and millions of lists.  

Not that I am not doing stuff – I am. I have been steadily reading the book. Now Sartre is discussing relationships with others, which I am finding a bit dreary. The idea of love being just the attempt to found our own being is a bit depressing. I’d like to think that you can actually know another person and like them for who they are.

Blocks are also being sewn at a very slow and steady pace. I am almost up to 600. Lots to show off today, because I haven’t posted in so long. The most time-consuming thing at the moment seems to be the redrafting of blocks to make them into 4 or 8 inch blocks. In the interests of speed I might just have to start cutting them at the size they are in the book. I would end up using so much more fabric and end up with loads of different sized blocks, but I suppose I could just make loads of sampler quilts when I am done.