In the interest of sanity I have decided to remove somethings from my to-do list. Namely, some of the things that have been on the last three to-do lists, which keep getting carried forward but never get done. I know…to-do list scrubbing can be a bad thing if it is something that is really important which you are putting off – like getting a nasty mole checked out. However, I think in my case it’s more removing things that are desirable but non-essential. Things like answering all 53 questions at the end of each chapter of my uni textbook. The course outline says you should try to do them all but I think there has only been one week where I have actually managed it. It would be nice if I could do them and catch up has been on my to-do list for a while but how necessary is it? I am doing the reading, listening to the lecture, getting my assessment in on time and the results I am getting for the assessment say I am doing well enough. So going back and finishing the last 20 or so questions for each week of the term so far? Off the list. However, it is done with the proviso that I start each week with the intention of finishing the current weeks set of questions. If I set my self the goal of only doing as many questions as I could, I would probably do far less than if I set myself the goal of doing them all.
As well as procrastinating about study I have also been putting off machine quilting. I think the one thing that has been letting my last couple of mini quilts down has been the machine quilting. I decided to do a couple of small samplers to practice and try out new patterns. I got as far as marking the first one up but then nothing. So I went to the library this morning and got a DVD. Hopefully it will inspire me.
Marked up mini whole cloth quilt
I had doing a blog post on my to do list today, so I am making myself do one; even though I would be much rather sitting on the couch with the air-conditioner on, reading my library books. I figure I need to remake the habit of regular posting. Which means I am actually going to have to go do some stuff worth posting about. I’m not sure how likely that is, I sewed myself out pretty much at the end of last year, making lots of last-minute Christmas bags. Now all my sewing stuff is packed away in the sewing room, except for the TV hexagons, some knitting and a cross stitch kit. I found the cross stitch when tidying all the other stuff away and thought I really must finish that, so It has been added to the pile of stuff to do when watching tv.
Because I like a crazy challenge I am also in the process of applying to do an MBA by distance education. At one point I had all my degrees, my transcripts and my high school records in a package but when I went looking I couldn’t find them. I can’t remember if I lost them in the flooding, or if I have just lost them. I have been waiting for a replacement academic transcript from my last uni, which I received last week. Now I just need to get a certified copy and I can finish my application.
So, I am starting to get organised for the year ahead. Now I just need to do something about the crazy heat (43.9C here yesterday) and find myself an intriguing sewing project.
I have been pondering my possible goals for the year. I know it’s almost the end of January but I did put a whole month of goal pondering on my schedule, so I am determined not to fret about my tardiness. The added bonus is that a month without pressing deadlines and just pondering is giving me new perspective and time to read things and figure out how they fit. For example, I was reading an article in an online newspaper which turned out to be helpful (I can’t remember which one, I should have made a note of it but it wasn’t until I pondered on it that I realised it was relevant). The article was about health, more specifically not trying to lose weight but focusing instead on being healthy. Which is fair enough you might think, but you can’t be healthy when you are overweight, so you have to lose weight, which leaves you…I’m not entirely sure where. But then I thought about it. Back in the days when I used to be really skinny I didn’t think about my weight. I used to do a lot of exercise, but mostly because I had a long walk to the nearest bus stop and because I actually wanted to do it. I didn’t make myself do exercise because I wanted to keep my weight under control, I did it because I enjoyed being fit, I enjoyed health and strength. It was only after I got my first office job, and travelled overseas, and then came back and did more office jobs that I started worrying about my weight. Ironically after that is when the pounds really started to pile on.
As an aside, I am convinced in years to come we will probably be suing people who got us to work in offices in the same way they sue cigarette companies. Lets face it, they know it’s bad for us. They keep sending round those things about taking regular breaks and desk stretching etc. Yet they still keep employing more people to do more office work.
But…back to my main point…the goals for the year. I have put away my scales and my food trackers and my guilt and I am now going to focus on health. It makes it as hard a goal to track as improving my quilting but I am confident that I can do it, because I’ll know it when I’ve got it. Sad though it is to say it, I haven’t felt healthy for a long while. Not that I’m sick, I just don’t feel healthy. Even when I was losing weight last year I didn’t feel healthy. So my new goal is not going to be about what the outside looks like but how I feel on the inside. How does what I do make me feel?
My job for this week is to come up with a tracker, something that makes sense of the imprecision.
On a happier note, I have started quilting some of the smaller bits and pieces I finished last year. I have been practicing free motion machine quilting. Unfortunately, I am not very good at it. My first effort was a table runner and I stippled all over, which I don’t think suits it very well at all. It’s just too distracting. Because of this, for my next piece I decided I would try doing lines along the edge of the block pieces. I’ll let you judge from the photos how well that went. The problem is I can’t seem to get an even consistent stitch. I have seen other people doing it and their stitching is very slow and steady and my machine doesn’t seem to do slow and steady. As soon as you so much as touch the foot pedal it is flat-out and I can’t move my hand fast enough to make a decent size stitch. I probably just need to practice more.
Have certainly been getting a fair bit done this weekend, but have decided I need a plan, and a schedule. In short I need to get more organised. It’s all very well and good to say I am going to eat more healthily and get more exercise but unless I define what that is it’s going to be fairly hard to achieve. So my job for the week ahead is to come up with a plan. A plan for the healthy eating and a plan for writing and a schedule for how I am going to spend my time. I know that sounds a bit over the top, but it might just work. Having just two big goals last year actually made it easy to decide how I was going to spend my time. I read in the morning and I sewed all the rest of the time. Having 4 goals is harder to juggle. So if I can set some time which I know is time I should be working on goal A or goal B etc I might actually get more accomplished.
But I have made a bit of progress since yesterday. I visited 3 places I had never been before. I needed to go to the hardware store so instead of going to the local one I drove to the new Masters one a bit further away. They didn’t have a skirting board in the size I wanted so I had to go to the local one anyway but they did have a very nice selection of native plants and I bought two. Then I had lunch at Toscanis at Springfield, a restaurant I hadn’t been to.
The third place I visited is slightly more in the spirit of the goal – I went to the Ipswich Visitor Information Centre. Now I have a nice stack of brochures about places to go near by, and a growing list of prospective visits including loads of information on nearby bush walks so I can knock off two goals at the same time.
I also managed to finish a quilt top this morning. I wasn’t sure at first whether the outer border went with the rest of it, and I thought it was too busy but it is growing on me.